Off to never

ever land.

So... I should have written this earlier. Now I'm tiiiiiirrrred. And want pizza. T_T
I believe I'm supposed to write about these pieces, my theme, and where it's going? I think? If not, then... that'll suck. :/
I drew these when I FINALLY got some descent pens, and started to have fun with the 'tattoo' design of them. I've got a knack for drawing realistic, and I'm good at swirly design fun- so why not combine it? I'm going to redo the first two projects we did this year, and fix them up to work with the theme- even though it's still mutating- and hopefully have them work. My theme- as of yet- is basically 'screwed perception', and plays with the proportions of objects while adding descent line quality and dots to them. Ooooh so many dots... :) I'm hoping that it generally stays with this style- I like changing EVERYTHING to different things constantly. Which is why my next project isn't going anywhere... I can never make up my mind- so I need to either stick with one medium or work quickly before I want to change it too much. Which has happened before...

I actually kind of planned these two projects- I drew some sketches, tested the idea of the piece before finalizing it on nice fancy paper- and they turned out nicely. I also didn't spend too much time on them. A couple days, maybe? It was just like, "INPIRATION! YESSSS! I HATH FOUND YOUUUU IN THE MAGICAL PENS OF AWESOME!!!!" And BAM. Awesome sauce and cut up hands.

...I'll do the four comments later. -_-U

Carry on my wayward son, there'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest... don't you cry no more.

Yes, those are drawings of my foot and hand. I did the second one in pencil on Friday, and then Saturday I got bored and decided to try out drawing from obsevation in pen. I think it worked out pretty good, especially since I didn't use eraser. :)

I need to draw more things than just my hands and feet... although hands are supposedly 'hard', they're getting rather... simple... :/ Maybe I should draw some boobs or something...

You are myyyy, bright eyed girl~!

Yeah... so I've got a new style that I've been working out. :) Basically I'm combining my love for- portraits, pen, randomosity, and tattoo/twisty swirly desgins. These are three examples of them so far.

I don't really have much to say about my art style at the moment... it's pretty basic, and I'm actually getting some work done in class. I'm thinking WAY too much about my projects and thus killing them but it's alright. 'Every little thing is gunna be all right....'

Although, life is confusing....

Like, me and a friend realized something the other day- okay, mostly me, but my friend contributed- that today's media is fucking with our MINDS. Haha, just kidding. We already knew that. What I didn't realize before was that the gay media focuses on indiscrimination and the bad parts of being gay waaaay too much- like, with most movies starring homosexual characters, you have to sit through two hours of HATE, PAIN, DEATH, HATE, STUPIDITY, and (mostly the lesbian movies directed towards the bigoted male population) lesbian PORN. Although a lot these movies are based on fact (hate, pain, death, discrimination, etc.), it's kinda depressing and for a youngin' such as myself- that's blossoming in this fucked up world- it doesn't leave a very happy impression on life. It's like... yes, I see that in the future I will be discriminated against, but until then, I'm not being hurt now and would rather think happy thoughts than 'GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH HATE HATE HATE WISH I WAS HETERO HATE HATE GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.' .... we need more happy gay movies. Just sayin'.

Another thing- why do the people I date 1. do drugs 2. steal things 3. cheat on girlfriends or 4. have a fucked up childhood? Yes, Lake Oswego is natorious for having messed up parents raising fucked up children- but COME ON. (not dissing anyone specifically... just the general-i-ness of my expriences) It's like, 'hey, you seem pretty cool and you like me back' 'yeah! let's date!' 'woo hoo!' 'Yeah! and ignore the decomposing bodies in my closet!' '... okay...' 'and the mutilated puppy' '...okay...' 'I love you... and also ignore my hand as I steal your ipod....' '......................................................................................no.'

Chyaahahahaha

Aaaah... silly americans and their fear of wiccans and middle eastern based beliefs. And Homosexuals.

And dark skin.

And Health Care.

And Love. :)

Ya know, i'm almost tempted to get a new sketchbook and completely fill it with pictures of religion, unfair lunchings, hypocrisy, and hate. And then make another one filled with love and understnding, gay love and trust. And then, the last one? ANIME. :)

It has occurred to me that I focus on how ignorant other are whenever I rant about religion, hate or whatever hypocritical crap is going on in the world, I become hypocritical myself by saying they suck for not accepting us- but at the same time, make them less and less accepted by us. How can we be accepted by them if we can't accept them? All of it is stupid and hypocritical.

People should just SHUT UP, ignore the differences (or if you can ACCEPT THEM) and love each other. Including me- however, when it comes to the internet, I can't help it. I love everyone, regardless of how stupid they are- Christian, Wiccan, Catholic- whatever man. Just fuck, not fight; and walk away happy. :)

Last little comment I forgot to mention earlier-

My concentration this year is MUTATING. BEWARE. At first, it was focusing on kids' perspective of the world... now it's some rad awesome opossum rainbow blossom fun.

Drove my Chevie to the Levy but the Levy was dry

So... I am doing fantastically today. The only down part was looking at the breadth section Mrs. BcBride posted... while everyone was frantically trying to get their pictures fixed up with photoshop (during class), and I was done, I boredly started playing with one of my pictures... and apparently forgot to NOT save, resulting in the death of one of my pieces. T_T

So sad....

But, everything else? FANTASTIC. I gots a new computer, BITCHES, which means I can go on facebook, chat with people on there, post stuff on blogspot....

Today, I went to the park with mah pops- the park was particularly dead, and the trees looked like they were writhing in pain, but it also looked like some kind of bad ass scene from a Miyazaki movie. If I could draw bad ass trees, I would draw those trees. Everything at that park also reminded me of Harry Potter- the before said bad ass trees looked like the Womping Willow, and the lake there looked like dead bodies were going to rise and grab my feet (sixth HP book/movie...) and then poison me with painful water. I know what I'll be dreaming about tonight. >:D

Like a cho lo side to side, elbows up up side to side

I guess I'll retell my experience at Portfolio Day?

Well, basically:

First, I went to one of the PNCA peeps, Melissa. She was pretty chill, and gave good feedback on my stuff. Mostly she commented on the quality of paper and that I should have a looooooot more observation pieces. I have a feeling I'll end up talking to her in the future. :D

I have NO IDEA WHAT WAS GOING THROUGH MY THICK SKULL when I decided to wait an hour in line for CalArts, but I did. I had no one to hang out with.... it was boring, but I pulled through. I have no intention of going here... but I still got interesting feedback. Mostly she wanted less of the puppet people and more of the crazy character drawings from my head- some background for those would also be nice. She also commented on the paper thing, and that I need to do a loooooooooooot more observational people drawings. *hint hint*, cartoons were not proportional. So, I'll have to work on that...

Lastly, I went to the OCAC, which for future colleges seems most promising. She mostly said the same things about my crazy folklore character drawings- that I need more of those and good background. She also said that I need a loooooooooot more observational drawings. I know what I'll be doing this year.

I think next year I'll add in some photoshop/logo stuff as well. Get some fancy pantsy paper. :)

Peace, folks.

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WOAH- I feel good- du nuh nuh nuh nuh nuh- I knew that I would, now

Come wish me a happy Birthday in my van down by the river.
You know you want to.
It's on the 16th.
The password is "Citrus Punch".
You know you want to come.
Get the free candy.
Down by the river.
You see this object in my hand?
It's candy.
It only looks like a lazer gun that kills people. It's harmless~!